Hey Darlings! Hope you are giving your haters a SHOW!
I have been working on a new project called Ode 2 Sidechick. Now don't tell anyone but I have created and instagram page for my poetry. There are no pictures of me, I put my Alias as my name backwards (creative right) lol. So the page is @convoswithanotebook. Basically my poetry is the things I don't necessarily say out loud, so the name seemed fitting. You guys should go check it out!
The "Ode 2 Sidechick" project is something new that I felt was birthed from pain mostly, BUT it has a sweet aftertaste. It was me getting over that period of low-self worth, toxic compromise and situationship. Healing happened. A lot of my heart is in this project as I have had some extensive experience in the sidechick territory. When I created my Poetry instagram page I spoke to my mom about the content. I was having this tension about the tone of my pieces and wondering how did it compliment who I was as a christian woman? I believe one the biggest challenges of being a believer is finding balance. Poems with lines like "orgasms feel like cheating when so long they have been the symphony titled after your kiss...", are a bit risqué for an unmarried christian woman lol. Honestly in some religions even married women can't write poems that mentions orgasms(what's that about huh?!,we'll discuss next time). So I was torn about how my poetry would reflect on my character. After our talk I realized that my emotional state in my writing is not as important as the impact I want it to have on my readers. I realized then that my poetry, just like this blog, and my book and all the things I do is never about me and always about the impact I want it to have on others. My motto has always been "its about you". My transparency has always been my sacrifice to help others heal and in a battle between my image and your healing, I will always choose YOU. And just like that!
I think I get it.
Intertwining the compartments of your life can seem challenging.
How do we balance life, love, work, marriage, family, relationships etc?
As a believer there is no such thing as intertwining , your spirituality and belief will reflect in all areas of your life.
The beauty of it as that your entire life should be one big reflection of God.
The next question became "How does my poetry reflect God?".
My work is always reflective and God values reflection. He tells his people several times about how they must remember specific moments in their history and tell their children and have it passed down, that's reflection.
My work is about vulnerability. My poetry is an art of surrendering what society holds so dear and that is social expectations, pressure, and false perfection. Everything I write shatters that and leaves room for honesty and real healing.
I then decided that I shouldn't hide my poetic side, however raw I think it to be. In a book that I am reading it said "Every human activity, except sin, can be done fo God's pleasure if you do it with an attitude of praise....God enjoys our gifts". I was like WOAH.
I love the support my writing brings to people and this why I continue to do it. Knowing that God enjoys that makes my skin warm and my heart full.
I have never seen myself as supportive except through writing, but I am happy that God has given me this ability to support you with words that don't make you feel small or belittle you, but words that embrace you in a way I probably never physically would or could for that matter.
Nothing makes me more happier, than the smile that I may be able to put on your face.
I am feeling prophetic at this moment at 4:46am, so I wanna literally type and figuratively speak these words into your life.
YOU ARE THE FIRE THIS EARTH NEEDS.
YOUR SUPERPOWER HAS BEEN SPECIALLY DESIGNED TO BEAT YOUR VILLAIN.
THE PERSON THAT YOU WANT TO LOVE, WANTS TO LOVE YOU TOO.
MAYBE YOU ARE AVOIDING THE BLESSING THATS WAITING FOR YOU.
GOD IS CALLING YOU TO BE MORE THAN AVERAGE.
YOUR DREAMS ARE NOT TOO BIG.
CLOSE YOUR EYES AND TAKE A RISK.
I think that's it for tonight. I do hope that if this resonates you'll maybe message me and tell me why.
See you later Love.... Don't forget to give your haters a show.